2010 The Beginning

Hi Folks, well I decided to put my thoughts here instead of facebook because I just don't have anything to say there. So far 2010 has been full of ups and downs. I'm happy to report that I've not smoked a tabacco cigarette at all this year, I decided the electronic cigarette is a much better alternative for me. For those of you that don't know what an e cigarette is, it's a battery operated device that looks very similar to a cigarette, it delivers nicotine through a smoke flavored juice that has no carbon monoxide, tar or any of the other chemicals that causes cancer and other deadly things. You don't burn anything, it's vapors. So far I like it very much, it's basically my new interest these days. It tastes way better than a cigarette. Of course there are cons to it like anything else, it should only be used if you're a long term smoker, it's not a toy and it's not healthy. It's merely a safer alternative for a smoker. Of course weeks after I get mine, there's this stupid article in the paper strongly discouraging e cigs, stating they have carcinogens but not giving any specific examples. Okay I've done my homework on these things and yes there may be carcinogens but compared to whats inside a fucking tabacco cigarette I'd much rather take my chances on one of these pups. Is the FDA suggesting all smokers go back to analog ones, well fuck you! So far I've tried two different models and both are pretty good. I'm not going to lie, I'm sure I've been withdrawing to some degree from traditional cigs but I feel the desire to have an analog cig slowly disappearing. Since my life is going at a much slower pace these days, I tend to get more depressed, moody and unmotivated but I find that if I can do at least one productive thing a day, that always helps. So far all I've really done on winter break is slowly get organized, watch my new flatscreen tv and work at the hospital. I've done no drawing or painting this year but I'm slowly starting to think about working again. My grandma is now going through chemo therapy again, the first one was incredibly hard on her but she eventually got better. It's just a one day at a time thing and I continue to hope the best for her. As far as Shodair goes, it's worse than ever, I was just telling my freind Matt last night that I used to be so confident in what I did there and now everybody's afraid to do anything because management will come down on us. I think the truth is I've been there way to long but I feel trapped there because I need the money. However I look forward to the day I never have to work there ever again. My plans so far for 2010 are to cut back on my hours there, spend more time on my schoolwork and hopefully make some great new art projects. There's a possibility I may head back to italy this summer but it's still uncertain at this point. Well I'll leave you with that for now, todays my day off and I'm planning on eating chicken and dumplings with my family and then heading to the movies!